I feel out of control with my food

I’m out of control with my food

 

 

I’m already full

I reach for more

 

I don’t stop

 

I know I should

I know I won’t feel good

I know I’ll judge myself after.

 

I can’t stop

 

I know this nutrition stuff

I know the food that makes me feel good

I know the food that makes me feel like crap

My head knows

My hands reach

 

I can’t stop

 

I want to be taking care of myself

I want to be kind to myself

But I make choices that make me tired

Choices that make me wired

Choices that make me feel like a failure

 

I can’t stop

 

I say to myself I’ll start tomorrow

I’ll start Monday

I need more willpower

I need more control

 

But I can’t stop

 

But what if it wasn’t about control

What if it wasn’t about “putting down the fork”

What if it wasn’t about hating yourself into compliance

 

What if it wasn’t about STOPPING

 

What if it was about STARTING

 

Starting to deeply hear what my body wants

Starting to honor my needs

Starting to tend to my nervous system

Starting to soothe the anxiety

Starting to tell the story of my body

Starting to mother myself

Starting to respect my shape

Starting to make peace with my body.

 

I can start.

 

~ Nina Manolson

For more of my poetic essays: https://ninamanolson.com/food-for-thought/

 

Nina Manolson, M.A. in Counseling Psychology, Nationally Board Certified Health & Wellness Coach, Psychology of Eating Coach, Body-Trust® Guide.

 

If you’d like help with navigating an authentic and respectful relationship with your body. Let’s talk.

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Nina Manolson, MA, NBC-HWC, board certified Health Coach, Psychology of Eating Coach and Certified Body-Trust Provider, believes that every woman deserves to feel good in her own body.

She helps women create a healthy and positive relationship with their food and body so they can love their body and life! She’s the founder of NinaManolson.com and The Nourished Woman Nation.

She helps busy women feel good in their own body.. She specializes in working with women over 40 who have tried other diets and approaches but are still struggling with their body and food.

She’s the creator of the BODY-LOVE MAP and the recipient of the prestigious Health Leadership Award from the Institute for Integrative Nutrition.

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