We were in bed⁣
Together⁣
Touching all the places⁣
For delight⁣

But out of my mouth⁣
Came⁣
“Don’t touch my belly”⁣
And I moved his hand away⁣

Away from the part of me that ⁣
I thought was too big⁣
Too much⁣
Not flat enough⁣
Not appealing⁣

My mind that had been⁣
Seduced into sensation⁣
Was suddenly trapped⁣
In self-criticism⁣

Self-consciousness ⁣
Took me out of my body⁣

I lost my own experience⁣
Of aliveness⁣

I lost connection ⁣
To my mate⁣
To the moment⁣
To myself⁣

Societies absurd ideals⁣
Of what is sexy⁣
Got into bed with me⁣

I want to say⁣
I now say⁣
Get the hell out of my bed⁣
Out of my body⁣

This pleasure is mine⁣
This belly is mine⁣

And then⁣
I put his hand on my belly⁣
Because that’s sexy too⁣

~ Nina Manolson⁣
NinaManolson.com