I Don’t Want To Die Hating My Body
Please, don’t let me lay on my deathbed
Reviewing my life with regret
Because I wasted it on hating my body
I don’t want to die wishing I was thinner
Wishing that I hadn’t eaten that chocolate croissant
I don’t want to leave this earth
Feeling like I needed to apologize for my belly
My thighs or my double chin
I don’t want to occupy any more mental real estate
On what tomorrow’s diet should be,
how to hide my rolls,
Or what someone else thinks of my shape
I don’t want my last breath to be a release from the captivity of body-shame.
I won’t do it.
It’s been too many years, decades, lifetimes
Of letting the pursuit of perfection
shroud my joy, kill my pleasure, extinguish my beauty
I won’t die hating my body.
Instead I’ll live…
Caring for this body
Not dominating her
Not depriving her
So that I’ve lived in a free body
I’ll live…
Talking respectfully to this body
Not bossing her
Not shaming her
So that I’ve imbued her with honor
Each day choosing this body
As she is
To live with and within
Until I die
And leave this sacred skin
with appreciation for being my home
~ Nina Manolson
Body-Peace® Coach
Nina Manolson, MA, is the founder of Body-Peace®.She helps women end the war with food and body and finally feel truly at home in their body—as it is.
She is known for her deeply feminist, anti-diet, body-peace® approach. She brings her 30 years of experience as a therapist, Body-Trust® Guide and Psychology of Eating Teacher to helping women create a respectful and trusting relationship with their food and body.
Nina’s Body-Peace® work is all in service of helping people get off the diet roller-coaster, and into a compassionate and powerful way of eating & living which creates a positive long-lasting change in and with their bodies. Her courses, coaching, poems and Body-Peace APP positively change the conversation that women are having with their body.
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