šŒš˜ š€šƒš‡šƒ šˆš’ š„š€š“šˆšš†ā£ā£
ā£ā£
Itā€™s a train stationā£ā£
A train constantly leaving the stationā£ā£
Actually 10 trains, leavingā£ā£
All at the same timeā£ā£
Going different directionsā£ā£
ā£ā£
Thatā€™s herā£ā£
The adhd brainā£ā£
ā£ā£
Creativeā£ā£
Thinkingā£ā£
Associatingā£ā£
Linking ideasā£ā£
Feelingsā£ā£
Imagesā£ā£
Factsā£ā£
ā£ā£
So much stimulationā£ā£
All at onceā£ā£
ā£ā£
Itā€™s a lotā£ā£
For herā£ā£
Exhaustingā£ā£
She wants to stopā£ā£
Slow down the trainsā£ā£
Stop the departuresā£ā£
ā£ā£
So she eats.ā£ā£
ā£ā£
While she watches Netflixā£ā£
Checks her phoneā£ā£
Listens to musicā£ā£
Calls her friendā£ā£
Makes another to-do listā£ā£
All at the same timeā£ā£
ā£ā£
She eats ā£ā£
Aching to ease the train scheduleā£ā£
ā£ā£
She keeps eating ā£ā£
Hoping forā£ā£
Releaseā£ā£
For just a momentā£ā£
ā£ā£
But sheā€™s not really soothed at allā£ā£
She doesnā€™t even notice ā£ā£
That she ateā£ā£
ā£
She keeps eatingā£ā£
ā£ā£
Sometimes ā£ā£
She forgets to eatā£ā£
Medication disconnect herā£ā£
From hunger ā£ā£
ā£ā£
She eatsā£ā£
Because sheā€™s starvingā£ā£
And canā€™t stopā£ā£
ā£ā£
Then a newā£ā£
Familiar train departsā£ā£
ā£ā£
The shame and blame trainā£ā£
Whizzing along ā£ā£
Blaring ā£ā£
ā€œI did it wrong again!ā£ā£
Why canā€™t I get this eating thing right?ā€ā£ā£
ā£ā£
She blames her brain ā£ā£
Shames her bellyā£ā£
ā£ā£
That train is going nowhereā£ā£
ā£ā£
In the distanceā£ā£
Another train gains steamā£ā£
A full service train ā£ā£
Supportā£ā£
Self-compassionā£ā£
A train that sees her brainā€™s brillianceā£ā£
ā£ā£
Itā€™s time for her to step aboard.ā£ā£
ā£
ā£
ā£
ā£
~ Nina Manolson